Funny Anniversary
I just looked at a calendar and realised that today is this blog's fourth anniversary.
How funny.
I don't want to go all melodramatic on y'all, but I think I'm going to take a break from blogging. Maybe I'll retire this blog. I don't know.
Today is a bad day to make decisions. I'm a bit crickety from fighting off a cold the last couple of days but essentially I can tell you that I'm feeling restless and bored.
Again.
Lord save us.
Maybe I'll start another blog with a bit more focus.
Maybe a knitting blog.
I dunno. There are an awful lot of American knitting blogs and they all scare the beejeezus out of me with their crazy kind of awesome (that may be an oxymoron for many people, but you should see the fancy things some of those people make. From scratch (ie, from the sheep. No lie.)). Also, a lot of the time, I have no idea what the hell they're talking about.
But I am intrigued by all the new yarns and designs out there. Seriously, for a kid who grew up with Mary Maxim yarn kits and shit from Michael's Craft Store, I'm seriously in heaven.
Now if only I could get to my Ravelry account from work. Apparently it's on the same level as porn sites for the old firewall...
Anyway (coz I was digressing), what I'm lacking in is focus. Generally and this for a very long time. My brain is all over the place. I'm feeling uncertain about lots of things. Whether illustrating is right for me (this could be because I haven't had a project in some time, but also because I feel like I've lost my passionate interest). Whether I'll be able to get anything off the ground at all in the near future with a babe in arms and what that might be.
I feel like I'm in a perpetual state of limbo and I'm not sure how to slough off the brainfunk this time. Or even what I want to do.
Even reading other peoples' blogs is doing nothing for me. My interest level is leaking away on a lot of things. I wish I was more active but until my maternity leave, I'm pretty much stuck at my deskjob, waiting for someone to give me something to do. But rather than spending my days wanting to draw, I want to knit.
You'd think, with all this time on my hands, that I would have more inclination to write this blog. Strangely, that is not the case.
Maybe this blog is a casualty of the times. Are blogs really waning? Hélas.
I'll invariably still be online. On twitter @jchevais and facebook (I'm Jennifer Wenham Chevais. If you friend me, tell me who you are (sorta) so that I know you aren't some spammer coming to stalk my profile).
So... with that in mind, I bid you au revoir*
*(which, if you didn't know, means 'til we meet again'. If I was definitely going away forever, I would have said 'adieu' which means 'until we meet again before God'...)
13 COMMENT(s):
Baby, it sounds like gestation to me... Of the heart, mind, creative impulse, and gawd only knows what other miraculous things. But what the hell do I know? I don't twitter or tweet, touch tiny buttons with my arthritic fingers, or gaze at miniature LCD screens with my lens-enabled-eyes, but I will always be looking around for you here, in whatever guise.
Happy blog anniversary and very best of luck with that gorgeous knitting that you dream of doing!
Amitiés,
Lots of things are changing for you right now, so yeah, it's totally understandable that you don't know what you want to focus on, or that your focus is missing in action. I can tell you that whether you write this blog or a knitting blog, your interest in blogging won't improve. I say you stay here for blogging, and just add the knitting stuff to the content, for when you come back. It's a creative endeavor, and really, it could expose other people not all that familiar with knitting to it at the same speed you learn about new stuff.
I wonder if you could go to the programmers who blocked Ravelry and ask them if you can get access to it from your work computer. For when you're at lunch or take a break. It's great for inspiration, and also for really incredible people and community, very much like blogging or Twitter. I can't imagine they'd think it was dangerous. But for those of us fiber whores, it is like porn.
I hear you. I really do.
Just wanted you to know that I've enjoyed reading your blog. I'll keep you hooked into my Google reader in case you make a return appearance. If not, all the best. Life's too short to waste it on things that don't feed your soul.
Glad you corrected my French, I wouldn't have known the difference.
But that's not why I'm commenting. Hope you keep it up, I've been reading you for so long I'm not sure what I'd do. And that nice comment you left? It made my day, I was feeling rather whipped by that point and I really appreciated it.
Yeah they're waning. Have been for a long time now. It's come around again to what it was to begin with: personal diaries to keep up with close friends. End.
Having said that, if you do start another blog with more focus - ie, knitting, which I think is a fabulous idea as I happen to share your passion for those beautiful things other people make and am working on learning as well - may I please follow you there? I think you're funny and charming and a fine read.
If you're not into establishing a fan base I completely understand, you're going to have a lot to do very soon, and I wish you all the best with your upcoming babe. Peace from Germany + the ability to get lots and lots of good sleep when you need it. :)
I've been sneakily reading your blog without comment. Today, I repeat what others wrote: blame it all on elevated hormones and roll with it. Now you understand why I mostly read without comment. Hang in there--oh, and I'm still hinting to my favorite SBUX barista that he could make the world a better place by slipping me a small liter or so of the pumpkin spice flavoring you adore.
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I've completely lost my blogging interest too. I can't even manage a decnet comment! I'll still be around that other place to read your updates and fully intend to meet you in Paris one day to say hello.
Take care
xx
Hey, my dear, long time no hear! I just wanted to say that I, as you know, basically retired my blog without even saying goodbye (how impolite of me!) but I guess my heart was never as into it as much as yours always was... You've always had SO MUCH to share, creatively and on a human level, and you know how much you make me laugh -- 'course the two of us together is an explosive combination, dontcha think?! ;o)
Anyhoo, you also know how much I share your feeling of lack of concentration & focus, as well as being distracted by so many interests. I'm still working on getting somewhere, but I hope to have come up with a few first steps... 'Til then, I'm STILL plugging away at studying for le Code, and I've got a LOOOOONG way to go!
Keep seein' ya on Facebook, at least until we manage to get together again FOR REALS!!! :o) As always, miss ya lots... And hope you're feeling well these days.
XOXO, You-know-who!
Good luck. Four years wow. I haven't made it four months now. And, I am pretty sure I don't know what I am going to write about 4 minutes before I post. No brain to keyboard filter for me.
I say you should just follow your interests and your creative impulses. If it's knitting go with it. In six months it might be something else. In six more months maybe the dust will settle (or not). I think you should just have fun while chasing it and not worry about lack of focus. Who cares!
And have you forgotten how much being pregnant turns your brain into mashed taters? Its no wonder you can't focus lately babybabybaby. I wear lots of pink when I'm pregnant --no idea why. I hate pink! Never wear it otherwise. It isn't your brain for the next 9 months. It's on loan. Tater brain! Let the dust settle after THAT.
I can understand what you're saying. I'm hanging on to blogging by a thread. Whatever you decide to do ultimately, I've enjoyed reading you over the last couple of years! And I'll keep up with you on Facebook,
i do so hope you come back...
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